my heart hurts

my heart is broken

im crying inside

and soon tears will come out

im feeling sick

sick and tired 'of something that you shouldnt know'

im missing something in my life

i feel like i lost something in my life

and rite now i just wanna kill myself

i know i said that ill kill myself

and end up ill never killed myself

but rite now

i really wanna kill myself

i wanna jump of a building

or just take a knife and kill myself

my life is becoming like shit

i dont talk to my friends that much

i feel like im no longer been cared anymore

sometimes i ask myself

why am i still a life?

no one needs me anymore

i should i BE a life?

everyday im thinking of the same thing

thinking of i should kill myself

maybe i should start eating "crayons"

just like joy said

ppl see me in school

ppl think that in fine and not emo

well i maybe look fine

but im not

im 100% emo

all the time

you just dont see it at all..

A Busy Day On The Weekend

hey there :)

omg yesterday (sat) i was out the whole day

can you believe it?

whole day you know

i think like this is like the 1st time that ive been out

for like the WHOLE day

well

it all started in the morning

got up at 8 something

did my tuition hw

went to bath

and went late for tuition

at like 9 something 

i think im like 10 minutes late for tuition

yeah so had tuition

until 10 30

then mom picked me up

and we went out

and send the dog for a hair cut

saw an old friend of my mom

and my moms old friend's son

well i know them pretty well

i knew them like when i was born

or something like that

so then after saying hi and talk to them

me and my mom went to eat

came bak home

around 1 something

then went bak out in 15 minutes or so

went to do my teeth

then went to visit my moms friend

god it was boring

a few hours later

went and pick my dog up

*now he looks like shit*

 went back home

saw my dad at home

then 5 minutes later

went out again

went to BSC

ate there

walked around

then went to buy some movies

and came bak home

at i dont know what time

really was lazy to on my com

then kenkit called

asked me why am i not on9

then i went on9

since he was so bored his ass off at home

poor thing

then talked and talked and talked

and  i called him

and my credit went to 3 bucks

so then talked on9

and went off

and went to sleeeeeeeep :)

wad a day...

EH FYI!!!

ppl from 'sri nobel'

if your using any of the schools computers

who ever reads my blog

pls delete the history!!

i dont want the school to know my blog!

god if they do

my blog is gone!!

so pls delete the 'HISTORY'

HAPPY BIRTHDAY ZI YIN!!!

mae yin just told me that is was her bday today

so pretty pretty zi yin

if your reading this

HAPPY BIRTHDAY!

man class sucks..

after this blog i have nothing to do...

btw having english now...

in the computer room

as you can see mae yin too blogged about zi yin and english class

so bye bye for now :)

tagged by shar

15 RANDOM Things About Me
RULES: Each player of this game starts off with 15 weird things/habits/little known facts about yourself. People who get tagged need to write a blog of their own 15 weird habits/things/little known facts as well as state this rule clearly. At the end, you need to choose 10 people to be tagged and list their names. No tag backs!

1) I have a really cacated phone which I cant really use anymore
2) im loving my ipod
3) im super lazy
4) im emo most of the time cause of some problems
5) i love shopping a lot but because of SOMEONE…I cant shop that much
6) love my music
7) wanna learn the guitar now 
8) I sleep funny, well that’s what mae yin said
9) I fell a sleep a few times in geog or sejarah class
10) I remember how to play the G note on the guitar
11) love doing my nails
12) I sound cute, well that’s what mae and Adeline says
13) I love my computer
14) I have mama ooi
15) I don’t really have family time ( ill tell you why in another post)

I tag:-
1. I don’t know
2. I don’t know
3. I don’t know
4. I don’t know
5. oh now I noe! No one!!

this is one bloody long tag man

Real name:
- Ooi Yuen Li

Nickname:
- Yuen Li - Yuen - Breast Meat - Rosemary

Married:
- nope

Male or female:
- Female

High school:
- Sri Nobel

College:
- 4 more years lar woman!

Short or long hair:
- medium

Are you a health freak?:
- not really, but try to keep healthy lar… if I don’t ill die faster…

Height:
- I don’t know

Do you have a crush on someone:
- not for now

Do you like yourself:
- err no and yeah…

Piercings:
- 2

Righty or lefty:
- righty


First…

Surgery:
- errrrrrrrr…

Piercing:
- a few years ago

Person you see in the morning:
- my weird mother aka mama ooi

Award:
- Most EMO and others… what do you think?

Sport you join:
- NETBALL!!

Pet:
- doggie

Vacation:
- errrr…

Concert:
- my 1^st was the click five

First crush:
- err some dude from old school… now no more larr

Currently…


Eating:
- nothing

Drinking:
- water

I'm about to:
- cry


Your Future…

Want kids:
- errr see 1^st lar

Want to get married:
- maybe yeah. I mean like I don’t wanna be single for the rest of my life

Careers in mind:
- i have no idea

Lips or eyes:
- eyes

Hugs or kisses:
- hugs and kisses

Shorter or taller:

- Taller lar

Romantic or spontaneous:
- I don’t know

Sensitive or loud:
- sensitive

Trouble maker or hesitant:
- let me think…


Have you ever…

Kissed a stranger:
- never in my life!

Drank bubbles:
- errrrrrrr…

Lost glasses/contacts:

- none of the above man! i never had glasses or contacts.

Ran away from home:
- I wish larr but ill never do that to my dad… but if I cant stand the shit from my mom ill run away and come back :P

Liked someone younger:
- nope

Liked someone older:
- maybe :P

Broken someone's heart:
- yeah! Once!! I even made someone cried! It’s a girl btw

Been arrested:
- you think im that bad?? Never in my life I tell you!

Cried when someone died:
- yeah my dear good grandpa

Liked a friend:
- no lahh… to me friends are friends and I love them :)


Do you believe in…

Yourself:
- I guess so

Miracles:
- sometimes

Heaven:
- hell yeah!

Santa Claus:
- no way

Magic:
- nope

Angels:
- err im not sure with this one

Answer Truthfully…

Is there one person you want to be right now:
- nope, well maybe one… but not really lahh

Do you believe in God:
- yeah

6 Bloggers to be tagged:
- you!

- you!!

- you!!!

- you!!!!

- you!!!!!

- and you!!!!!!

what kind of day is this???

wads bad:

мelanie says:

yuen li

`  Yuen li (: says:

hi...

мelanie says:

is your momma there?

`  Yuen li (: says:

no

мelanie says:

alright

мelanie says:

THIS IS THE WORST FUCKING DAY IN MY ENTIRE LIFE

`  Yuen li (: says:

MINE TOOOOO!

`  Yuen li (: says:

PTM SUCKS LAHH

`  Yuen li (: says:

i mean like

`  Yuen li (: says:

just now rite

`  Yuen li (: says:

my mom pick me up from bels place

`  Yuen li (: says:

rite after PTM

`  Yuen li (: says:

once i enter the car arr

`  Yuen li (: says:

from bels hse to my hse

`  Yuen li (: says:

none stop

`  Yuen li (: says:

scolding and talking

`  Yuen li (: says:

and i fell asleep

`  Yuen li (: says:

and she got pissed off

`  Yuen li (: says:

i mean like

`  Yuen li (: says:

i notice

`  Yuen li (: says:

i dont listen to my mom at all

`  Yuen li (: says:

but i listen to my dad

`  Yuen li (: says:

all the time

`  Yuen li (: says:

i mean like

`  Yuen li (: says:

im tired of listening to her

`  Yuen li (: says:

scolding me

`  Yuen li (: says:

all the time

`  Yuen li (: says:

everything has to come 

`  Yuen li (: says:

with the subject church

`  Yuen li (: says:

im so tired of that

`  Yuen li (: says:

until i never listen to her

`  Yuen li (: says:

i mean ilke its no my fult that i dont listen to her

`  Yuen li (: says:

its just that

мelanie says:

wait

`  Yuen li (: says:

im SO FUCKING TIRED LISTENING TO HER

мelanie says:

momma's here

мelanie says:

kays

`  Yuen li (: says:

so

`  Yuen li (: says:

i mean like

`  Yuen li (: says:

from young

`  Yuen li (: says:

i never liked going to church

`  Yuen li (: says:

and she wants me to go like so badly

`  Yuen li (: says:

but i dont wanna go

`  Yuen li (: says:

so i end up not going to church

`  Yuen li (: says:

and after one year later

`  Yuen li (: says:

from then

`  Yuen li (: says:

she started bringing up the subject about how church can help you a lot

`  Yuen li (: says:

like

`  Yuen li (: says:

even shopping

`  Yuen li (: says:

you noe

`  Yuen li (: says:

and and 

`  Yuen li (: says:

when it comes to something bad

`  Yuen li (: says:

she will be like

`  Yuen li (: says:

see arr

`  Yuen li (: says:

if you go to church have fun learn something

`  Yuen li (: says:

and then you can imporve in ur studys

мelanie says:

that's stupid

`  Yuen li (: says:

and all that shit you

`  Yuen li (: says:

from dunno how many years

`  Yuen li (: says:

shes been saysthat

`  Yuen li (: says:

all the time

`  Yuen li (: says:

you

`  Yuen li (: says:

noe

`  Yuen li (: says:

i mean like

`  Yuen li (: says:

IM SO FUCKING TIRED TO HEAR ALL THIS MAN

`  Yuen li (: says:

i mean like

`  Yuen li (: says:

the way that my dad talks to me

`  Yuen li (: says:

it makes me wanna study you noe

`  Yuen li (: says:

the way he says it

`  Yuen li (: says:

its not stupid you noe

`  Yuen li (: says:

i mean like you think lahh wat can church help you in ur studies....ok ya larr english but others lehh

`  Yuen li (: says:

she doesnt understand the teenage life now a days you noe

`  Yuen li (: says:

i mean last time my mom study is way diff rite

`  Yuen li (: says:

and the way that my dad says it is like

`  Yuen li (: says:

i cant make you do it rite

`  Yuen li (: says:

its ur chose 

`  Yuen li (: says:

wad kind of life you want

`  Yuen li (: says:

the low class or the high end class

мelanie says:

they don't know how complicated things are 

`  Yuen li (: says:

its ur life not mine

`  Yuen li (: says:

and all that

`  Yuen li (: says:

i mean like  that makes me

мelanie says:

they think that if someone teases you, just ignore it

мelanie says:

yeah, you can

мelanie says:

first few days

`  Yuen li (: says:

wanna study you noe

мelanie says:

but after that, it's damaging your self-esteem

мelanie says:

they dont understand, that

мelanie says:

nowadays

мelanie says:

there's a popular group, and the nerds

мelanie says:

they don't understand that it's the 21 century

мelanie says:

things are different

мelanie says:

to them, last time, it's all simple

мelanie says:

naive little kids running around

мelanie says:

teacher's here might not be fierce

мelanie says:

last time, the teacher's are fierce

мelanie says:

but, if you give me, i'd rather have fierce teacher's than go through all this shit

мelanie says:

being a teenager, it's complicated

мelanie says:

not what they think it is.

`  Yuen li (: says:

i dont think i can live with my mom anymore lah

мelanie says:

i'm fed up with things they think are right

мelanie says:

when it's totally wrong

мelanie says:

i'd rather go to tanjung rambutan

мelanie says:

where i dont have to see anyone

мelanie says:

dont have to face anyone

мelanie says:

i wont have problems

мelanie says:

everyday, i can just face four walls

мelanie says:

sing all day

мelanie says:

talk to myself

мelanie says:

i dont care

`  Yuen li (: says:

oh guess wad

мelanie says:

what?

`  Yuen li (: says:

i learned the G note

`  Yuen li (: says:

guitar i mean

мelanie says:

oh shucks

`  Yuen li (: says:

lol

`  Yuen li (: says:

but anyway

`  Yuen li (: says:

get bak where we were

`  Yuen li (: says:

oh god i wanna blog this

`  Yuen li (: says:

today sucked the end

мelanie says:

to the max

`  Yuen li (: says:

ya

well thats how i feel about my parents lahh

wads good about today is:

• i learned the note G on the guitar
  
• i had fun for hours with isabel, shar, joyce and em